two jobs

service

friends

family..

MAN i'm exhausted.. the best sleep i got so far was 71/2 hours 3 weeks ago.. booo

sooo my sister bought a new car AND I GET the HONDA WOOTT WOOOT..

2005 HONDA CIVIC is all my mine well maybe sharing it with my other sister but its a car.. now more responsbilities ahh. but man i feel like i can move but then the problem is i've been procrastinating with my lisense fudge..

Have you ever thought of something that you wished you have done? haha.... and the times of what if i was in that situation stuff? anyways. It's funny that i could only vent on a journal boo. well i don't really write anything on this so yeah whatever.
have you ever thought of the chances you missed ? the oppourtunities? the people you could have meet? but then you ended up in a world where you wished something was given to you more? have you ever thought that if you act that way or you would have been someone else you would have more people in your life? the people you have met that you wished you could have stayed in touch with, the people you hated because of stupid reasons? have you ever asked where insecurities came from and realize it was from your past? the "friends" who aren't even there in the 1st place or maybe i'm not there for them? the money you could have saved but then again you wasted it in a lot of things? the temptations that you resisted? Have you ever thought that you deserve so much more but you settle yourself ? have you ever thought that how peole say its hard to change how they are but then back then they were something they were? have you ever seen a person you care about waste so much potentials? have you ever felt that you were always last? have you ever felt that you have noo friends at all? have you ever felt that the person that you consider your bestfriend doesn't feel thae same way? have you ever thought that you wished you were more than just a girlfriend but also a confident? have you ever thought if you would have made another decision you would have been with would have been doing something else?.... are you sick and tired of seeing people who are not even there for you? you know sometimes it takes a phone call to see how you are and see how your doing to be consider as a true friend but yet i don't do that and i don't get that? YEAH i know a lot of peole but its so hard to consider who are my friends. you know have you ever thought the reason why your friends with other people is because your in the same commuinty but then again outside the commuinity they don't get a two flying F's about you? have you ever wonder if you would have left it they would remember you or go on? you know these thing the reason why i stay is because of God. but then i have no reason to stay for as friends. it's hard to consider these people my friends when the only time i see them is in events or whatnot. I have no idea who are my friends, I have no idea if i'm being selfish with the LJ when all i wanted was to return what i do to other people. It's hard being a nice person when peole step over you. It's funny the people who don't deserve shit are the ones getting it.. whatever..

***** eh i don't feel like editing